Relationships

I find that relationships are complex especially when it comes to love. I know that I hurt the guy by ditching him. The truth is that I don't want to be hurt. I know that is selfish of me because I do feel insecure as I felt that secondary school life is short. It is bad enough that I lost my best friend by doing outreach.  After all it is my first BGR (short for boy-girl relationship). I fell in love with him in secret during class in the last 4 years of my secondary school life. Can you imagine that it is so torturing for me for me to sit near him but never to have him?